Cloud of DOOM and Paranoia

I occasionally have trouble with extreme paranoia. I get this feeling that a dark cloud is following me, and once in a while it catches up and squats right down on top of me. Those days are dark and dreadful. I start imagining that everyone is against me, every single person in my life, every friend, co-worker, my manager, my husband, my family, every friend I have ever had... all are against me, or hate me, or at the very least are apathetic and could care less about my sad existence. It gets worse. I imagine my husband is cheating on me, and the company I work for is about to lay me off. Perhaps one of my closest friends is with my husband, or has been, and they are laughing at me. OH HORRORS!!! Add to that, worst case scenarios involving loss of money and property, global warming, the economy in the toilet, terrorism... boogey monsters around every corner!
Of course, any SANE person would be able to shake thoughts like that and never allow them a moment of time, let alone take root and grow like Jack's beanstalk. But that is exactly what that cloud of doom is. I can see it sometimes on the horizon, and sometimes I wake up and there it is hanging over me. The worst part is, I feel completely alone, and that no friend in the world is willing to listen to my paranoid thoughts and comfort me, because, well maybe I deserve it. I'm essentially a bad person and I deserve this punishment. Yeah, that's in there too.
Of course this is all BULLSHIT and as I said yesterday, "It's nobodys fault but mine". The good news about that is, it is mine, therefore I alone can destroy the cloud. I do have friends, and not only are they willing to listen, they want to help.
A few days ago I used EFT after wasting a couple of days feeling doomed. Not Armageddon doomed, just a little doomed, like a regular supporting cast member on Star Trek. Things might look pretty grim, but you know they will be back next week.
We were discussing things that I might be suppressing that might be poisoning my spirit and my thoughts. At first childhood was discussed, since there is no shortage of trauma for most people who experience this type of issue. But failing to hit anything terribly sensitive, I suddenly realized we need to jump forward 16 years, to high school. With the help of my guide, I did EFT on a very traumatic experience from high school that has left deep emotional scars. We repeated the EFT process about 3 times, and after the 3rd time, I was able to tell the story without any of that feeling, like my guts are being vacuumed from the inside.
That was last Thursday. This is Tuesday, and I have had a fantastic week. I feel like reading and meditating in the morning, which gets my day off to a great start. It also tells me that I am in a good emotional place, just the fact that I want to read and meditate. I am feeling very strong against the cloud, it is staying far away from me now. I know I can keep it there by focusing on gratitude, and flushing any negative memory and thought as soon as it tries to creep into my mind.